Ps 13:2: “How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart?” [NIV]
David’s songs always impress me with their honesty. He is so transparent as he puts pen to his soul, whether he is praising God’s goodness and greatness or examining his own thoughts and desires. Often his songs begin with his troubles and end in God’s praise. Psalm 13 is structured that way.
David seems a bit worn down in this song; worn from the constant battle with his enemies. His cry of “How long …?” is one that has probably crossed all our lips. How long, God, must I face this problem, endure this sickness, struggle with this circumstance?
I know lately I have wrestled with my thoughts and had sorrow in my heart, so much so that I called my good, trusted friend last week knowing that she would understand. And she did. She didn’t solve my wrestling or remove the sorrow, but she listened as I poured out my heart. I know that she will be praying for me, just as she knows I pray for her.
I know also that like David, I can give this sorrow of heart to my Lord and Savior. He will listen. He wrestled with a sorrow in the Garden of Gethsemane that nearly overwhelmed Him, so I know He understands mine. I know that I can trust His love.
Ps 13:5-6: “But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me.” [NIV]