My brand of COVID did not include losing my sense of smell and taste. It was, in fact, the opposite. The nausea and stomach upset seemed to be affected by an increased sense of smell. Even the wax burner with the pleasant apple and cinnamon wax (which I usually like) was disagreeable.
Since I am now in the recovery phase, I find that my food desires have definitely changed. All I want to eat are carbs. My dinner last night consisted of half a baked potato with a little butter, salt, and a skim of shredded cheese. I crave potatoes, rice, pasta, bananas, apples … and, of course, cookies.
None of those things make a good diabetic diet. Usually, I eat a little lean meat, lots of veggies, and some fruit. Now I don’t even like to think about veggies. And meat – not so much. I hope this doesn’t last … I want to get back to managing my diet as I should.
I find in my recovery that I have another craving … this one is a delightful one. I want more of the LORD today than I had yesterday. I look at each day now as a gift from God. I need to … I want to spend more quality time with Him.
The psalmist put it this way: “As a deer longs for streams of water, so I long for You, God. I thirst for God, the living God.” [Psalm 41:1-2 HCSB]
I do not know “why” God allowed COVID into my life. I do not know “why” the fatigue seems to linger. Maybe it is to remind me that my longing for Him had waned a bit and my focus on Him had dimmed.
This morning, my longing and my thirst for the living God has my attention. Thank you, LORD. Amen