I am about to step out of my dream, goal, and passion of the last decade, that of having a Pentecostal Church in the little town of Middleton, Idaho. I can sense in my spirit, the beginning of the exit. I know God’s will in this is sure. What may have prompted me initially to think about turning this church over to another was my diagnosis of PMR and GCA. The fatigue and pain made me unable to pastor as I should.
That, however, led to the realization of the Spirit’s determination for that little church. It is time for the one waiting in the wings to take that church into the future. God has His person picked out. Now even though I seem to have remission from the autoimmune diseases and my energy level is picking up, I know it is time for me to step out and allow another to step in.
So now what? Does God’s calling just disappear?
In my heart I know that it does not. It may reshape into a different dream, a different goal, but it never ceases to drive the heart to be relevant and honorable to the One who called.
In Romans 11, Paul wrote of Israel and that God’s current “rejection” of them is neither total nor final. They will be restored. Paul makes the statement toward the end of his argument for Israel that “God’s gracious gifts and calling are irrevocable.” [vs 29 HCSB]
“God’s gracious gifts and calling are irrevocable.” While true for Israel, I think it is also true for all who have received His gracious gifts and surrendered to His wondrous calling.
I know that I know that I know that God is not done with me yet. So, I pursue His dream …. Wondering where it will take me now.