I got good news last week. I do not have adrenal insufficiency. The test results proved that my adrenal glands are working. That really is good news. Except. It doesn’t explain “why am I thus?”
That question (Why am I thus?) is one of my favorite questions found in the scriptures. It comes from Genesis 25 in the KJV.
Isaac entreated the LORD for his wife Rebekah because she was barren. God granted his prayer and Rebekah conceived – twins. The babies struggled within her; and she said, “If it be so, why am I thus?” [vs 22]
Rebekah took her question to the LORD who explained that the twins within her (Jacob and Esau) represented two nations and two manners of people. Those two nations would battle each other for dominance – and are still battling today!
We pray and God grants our request, but sometimes that does not answer all our questions – sometimes it can even raise more questions.
The docs have eliminated adrenal insufficiency as the cause of my symptoms, that is great news. But they have not yet been able to identify “why am I thus.”
Still when I think about my life, I realize I have the best Good News anyone can have. I am redeemed by the blood of Christ Jesus. I am a child of the Living God. I am forgiven. I am loved. I know I can trust God even during the “why am I thus” times.
