“How can I know all the sins lurking in my heart? Cleanse me from these hidden faults…. May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer.” [Psalm 19:12, 14 NLT]
These last few weeks prior to the Christmas celebrations have been a very emotional time for me. God has been working out some things in my heart that I have allowed to take up habitation there – hurts from the past four decades of ministry.
I will simply say it hasn’t always been easy to be a woman in ministry, and I have accumulated hurts along the way. But I do not want to stand before my Lord with these burdens. I do not want them to turn into bitterness.
God has graciously and tenderly touched my heart over the past months and recently brought healing through a message at church. That message set me free. It allowed me to see that even during the hurts, God was at work.
I am not sure I have the words to explain the joy in having 40 years of hurts healed. My heart rejoices today because I now know that even our hurts can advance the Kingdom of God on earth.
Thank you Jesus! Amen & Amen
