It is 3 AM and I am wide awake in my bed. I just woke up from a crazy dream about buying a lift ticket in another town with a friend, but the friend disappeared, and I missed the lift. At the same time part of the song “I Speak Jesus” was running through my mind. I was also in the middle of a hot flash. Strange night.
As the hot flash dissipated, I realized I was in one of those early morning sweet spots – one of those times when I had no pain. I knew that if I moved or got out of bed that sweet spot would disappear, so I just stayed right where I was.
I began to think about what might be causing my extreme fatigue – but that is a fruitless search. There are so many things, and the doctors just can’t quite nail down the cause (or causes as there could be many contributing to it). Then I began to think about the wonderful blessing God gave me recently in seeing the Espanol church come to life in CFC Middleton.
Suddenly, I was overwhelmed by how much God loves me. I could not help but wonder why? I am nothing special. A little girl from Pennsylvania, raised in a dysfunctional family. A rebellious teenager. A woman headed into overwhelming dysfunction also until Jesus intersected my life.
Why God would want me is beyond comprehension. Why He would love me as He does is beyond amazing. Why He would answer prayers, give me desires, and then fulfill them – and allow me to see them fulfilled – is so abundantly glorious I have few words to express how I feel. I silently wept as I thought about those things.
Everything I am and everything I have is from Him. God loves me. And the glorious thing is that He loves you the same way!
“For who makes you differ from another? And what do you have that you did not receive?” [1 Corinthians 4:7 HCSB]
