Next to last retreat post:
I woke Wednesday at 2 AM. I could not sleep thinking about what the day might hold. I even considered staying another full day and checking out on Friday. Tuesday was so precious, I thought I could stay two more weeks if that were possible. I was so thankful for what God spoke to me.
I decided to make Wednesday a day of thanksgiving. I went down the list I brought of people and thanked the Lord for each one. I spent most of the day just offering thanks. As the day wore on, I looked up Scriptures regarding giving thanks and began to pray through them.
The last one I looked at was from 1 Tim 1:12: “I thank Christ Jesus our LORD, who has given me strength, that he considered me faithful, appointing me to his service.”
Wednesday evening, I was once again overcome with the need to “just know Him” – this God who has given me “a little strength” and “considered me faithful” for His service.
I didn’t want anything from Him, I just wanted Him. Him! If anything, Wednesday evening I went to sleep feeling both closer to Him and yet farther away. He had brought me so close to Him through these last few days and yet while that nourished my soul, it created in me an even deeper thirst for more of Him.
Ah Lord Jesus, I want to know You!